The “me” that I am now is a result of surviving the last several years and learning to simplify.
The years between 2007 and 2014 are a blur. I can’t think of anything significant or memorable that occurred other than I left one job, fumbled for a year, got another job, and my financial life took a huge turn in the wrong direction. Ok, maybe those were significant, but it really just felt like I was going through the motions of life.
There were unexpected financial issues that I just wasn’t prepared for. That pretty much undid me. It was humiliating and I just couldn’t get past it. I had failed. I was broke and humiliated for a long time, completely exhausted and emotionally drained. Ya, money can’t buy happiness…but it certainly makes life easier!
And when I thought it couldn’t get any worse, I should have ducked. I have been known to say I must have been an ax murderer in a previous life. I say that in jest, but damn, the things that have taken place!
Table of Contents
- 2015, the Year of the Ankle
- 2016, the Year Life Changed in an Instant
- 2017, Learning to Simplify
- 2018, the Other Foot
- To Be Continued…
2015, the Year of the Ankle
The proverbial train started wavering on the tracks in 2015. I had grand plans to train for the Disney Princess 5K to celebrate my 50th birthday in February. Once I hit that goal, I wanted to train for the Disney Princess Half Marathon the following year. I had a full year to train for the half, and I was determined. I did some local 5k races, trained, and declared I would never be a runner. All I needed to do was walk really, really fast. I even signed on for coaching. This was serious stuff! There was a 5K in my immediate future!
My tribe was supportive, and I’m pretty sure they thought I’d lost my mind. That’s the cool thing about a tribe. They love you even when you do nutty things. A 5k? Ok. A Half Marathon? I’m sure they thought they’d bring a stretcher.
On the evening of December the 25th I tumbled down three steps. Three little steps! I’m not even sure what happened. I stepped down and kept going. My ankle sustained the third injury in two years that night…the third injury to the same ankle in 15 months. My dream of the Disney Princess 5K for my birthday was gone in three little steps. It felt like a punch to the gut that takes everything out of you. I was upset and disappointed. Had I manifested this so I would fail? Was I simply a clutz? Well, yes, I AM a clutz, there is no arguing that.
2016, the Year Life Changed in an Instant
In 2016, the proverbial train completely derailed. On January 11, 2016, I fell from the top rung of a 6-foot ladder. That fall resulted in a head injury that took nearly two years to recover from. Life changed on a dime, on the top rung of a ladder with a naughty cat watching from the rafters of the garage. For better or worse, life would never be the same.
Learn more about my epic fall next week.
On April 7, 2016, the mother died after many years of health issues and refusal to take care of herself. She decided to give up and no one could change her mind. I am fairly certain there were mental health issues as well. To say we had a challenging relationship is an understatement. I was unable to travel to the funeral. You know, skull fracture and a huge lump on the back of my head. My doc was afraid my head would explode on the plane.
On November 26, 2016, the father died as well. He died eating dinner, which I hope made him happy. The man loved to eat and appreciated a good meal.
There’s a lot to the story involving the parents. That’s for another day. We’ll just move on and keep things light.
2017, Learning to Simplify
I kept saying I would start walking again. I didn’t. Truth be told, I was terrified of falling again and hurting my ankle or my head. Every day I woke up, I was grateful to have woken up. I took a lot less for granted. But, fear and routine were the “new normal.” Man, don’t we hate that phrase now?
I did nothing to put myself in any kind of “danger”. There was no walking or training, no driving places unfamiliar, pushing a grocery cart or climbing the first step of a step stool. You know, the things that can cause great, physical harm. I mean a grocery cart is dangerous, right?
Thanks to the ladder incident I could no longer multi-task. Too much noise or activity caused me to freeze and try to concentrate on what I was doing so could finish what I’d started. There were times I would ask customers to be quiet a minute because I was having a bad brain day. They were always so nice about it, and they still are. I had to start writing down everything. I just couldn’t remember things the way I used to.
Truthfully, it took me a few years to figure out how to live with all that. Every day was a new adventure. I did my best to keep a sense of humor and make the best of it.
2018, the Other Foot
My head injury found a resting point and the surprises stopped coming. The new reality took some adjusting to. In July of 2018, my foot started bothering me. The OTHER foot. By November I had a good idea of what was going on and asked the doctor. Yup. Plantar fasciitis. Really? Someone up there had a wicked sense of humor. That’s a little ailment that can really mess with you. Did I mention it was my GOOD foot? It literally took two years to heal and go away. Actually, I’m rather fortunate that was the case, as some people don’t heal at all.
The other foot…ironically, I often am waiting for that other shoe to drop. So when the other foot had an issue, I may have taken it as a sign. What I didn’t realize then was there was far more good in my life than I was seeing, and the best was yet to come. It was time to pull up my big girl pants!
To Be Continued…
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